some stupid thing
Maybe just isn’t meant to be, maybe not for me. I mean, if I look back, I always had some great moments that I will never foreget but it seems like that moments are just memories, because everytime I have something beautiful next minute it’s gone. I always met jerk people, bad people, people who don’t know how to treat themselves. And I always was the good girl, the kind one, but being this it was just a waste of time and life. Being nice and good broke my heart. And I never found a person that really understands me, at least not forever. I just want somebody who can be there for me, who cares about everything I do, someone special, made just for me. Someone who can hold me tight, and never let me go. I don’t care what kind of relationship would be to me. A real love, a sister, a brother, an best friend, a mother, a father, a cousin, an aunt, a boy, a girl, a dog. I just want some love and devotion, warm and hot. Shelter and comfortable. Something pure and beautiful. But now I realize that really , I don’t have a chance. It seems like I will never have love, it seems like I’m alone in this fucking world. Yeah, I know. I have my grandma that really loves me, but she doesn’t understands me. I have three wonderful dogs, and clearly two of them know how I feel. But it seems like I’m fine and ok, does it seems like I’m happy ? no, because it’s not enough. I need someone, a person, who look after me, who can hold my hand, and tell me it’s gonna be alright. Tell me, we are in this together, and we’ll never give up. That in the end it’s gonna be just you and me, two persons that love each other. …………… No, that it’s just not for me, and will never be. And I’m sorry if I did something wrong, but maybe I had to do it. I mean, like I told you before. I was the good one, but people treats me like crap, so I have to be tough. In this shit world I have to be a shit too. But I don’t think I can, I just feel that I have to love, to make everybody happy, to act like nothing happened. And there exist somewhere in the world some good, lovely, and amazing ones like me. But I will never meet them, maybe cuz I’m too coward to face my feelings, to face the bitches. Or maybe because this was meant to be. Maybe I was chosen to handle all this, and to suffer for everyone. I know it sounds crazy, they think that I pretend to be Jesus, but it’s not like that. Now I realize that I’m not a saint. But even that way I still want to go in Heaven. I think this is the only one dream left of my mine. Because I really don’t want to go in hell. There’s the only thing I’m afraid of. And I really believe in God, the only God that exists. And I’m thinking that’s why i want the most to go in Heaven. Because there I know there’ll be the ones I love, my true best friends. So I’m trusting that if here, on Earth, I will never be happy, then in the Paradise.
So after all this, I still do it all again. So I’m thankful for giving me this chance, for giving me life. I love you and I will always will God! So here’s the end, my saddest end. Just thanks for stoping by and finding out how I really am. >:D<
the vampire diaries quotes
Damon: Have I entered an alternate universe where Stefan is fun?
Stefan: I really liked you better when you hated everybody.
Damon: I still do. I just love that they love me.
Damon: Stefan is different. He wants to be human. He wants to feel every episode of How I met your mother
Damon: Stefan likes puppy blood… little Golden Retriever blood with floppy ears. That’s his favorite.
Damon: It is a whole new world.
Stefan: We can explore it together.
Damon: Somewhere along the way you decided I was worth saving.I wanted to thank you for that
Elena: Your welcome
Leapsa de 200 de intrb
ma plictiseam sh tia mi-a dat ideea
foarte multe intrb, sh unele de abia le-am descifrat 
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01) Bought everyone in the pub a drink: No.
02) Swam with wild dolphins: Inca nu, dar candva voi face asta. Sper.
03) Climbed a mountain: Wasn’t that big of a mountain but I guess I did.
04) Taken a Ferrari for a test drive: Nu am permis si nici nu ma atrag Ferrari-urile.
05) Been inside the Great Pyramid: No.
06) Held a tarantula: Hell no!
07) Taken a candlelight bath with someone: Nope…
08) Said ‘I love you’ and meant it: I’m not sure…
09) Hugged a tree: Nici macar din greseala.
10) Done a striptease: I would die of embarrassment T_T So no!
11) Bungee jumped: Nu, ma cam tenteaza uneori
12) Visited Paris: No, but I would like to one day.
13) Watched a lightning storm at sea: yes 
14) Stayed up all night long, and watch the sun rise: Once or twice. It was awesome.
15) Seen the Northern Lights: No, but I would love to…
16) Gone to a huge sports game: Not really…
17) Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa: Nu, dar mi-ar placea sa fac si aia.
18) Grown and eaten your own vegetables: Nu ale mele, ale bunicii
19) Touched an iceberg: No.
20) Slept under the stars: Nu, dar probabil voi face si aia candva, suna mijto ^_^
21) Changed a baby’s diaper: no )
22) Taken a trip in a hot air balloon: No…
23) Watched a meteor shower: no
24) Gotten drunk on champagne: Hmm, nope.But i will
25) Given more than you can afford to charity: hmmm…..yes, i guess
26) Looked up at the night sky through a telescope: Not yet.
27) Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment: hell yeah :))=))
28) Had a food fight: Yeah, there are thousand of people dying of hunger all over the world and I’m fighting with food. Never gonna happen.
29) Bet on a winning horse: I have better things to do.
30) Taken a sick day when you’re not ill: Uhm, don’t we all do that? ^_^
31) Asked out a stranger: Never had, never will. Too shy.
32) Had a snowball fight: Hell yeah! Snowball fights are awesome!
33) Photocopied your bottom on the office photocopier: o_O NO!
34) Screamed as loudly as you possibly can: Yup.
35) Held a lamb: Aww… no.
36) Enacted a favorite fantasy: I don’t think so…
37) Taken a midnight skinny dip: You mean like.. naked?! Never!
38) Taken an ice cold bath: Doar dus, din greseala xD
39) Had a meaningful conversation with a beggar: no
40) Seen a total eclipse: no :x
41) Ridden a roller coaster: No, but I want to. I would probably faint, but still, it sounds fun.
42) Hit a home run: no
43) Fit three weeks miraculously into three days: I don’t think so…
44) Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking: Yeah, but i didnt know that someone was at my back
45) Adopted an accent for an entire day: No.
46) Visited the birthplace of your ancestors: o_O Dacii? Da. Romanii? Nu. Strabunicii? Dap.
47) Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment: I guess so.
48) Had two hard drives for your computer: No.
49) Visited all 50 states of USA: Never been to USA.
50) Loved your job for all accounts: Never been employed.
51) Taken care of someone who was shit faced: no
52) Had enough money to be truly satisfied: I guess so… I don’t need many things to satisfy me.…
53) Had amazing friends: Still do <3
54) Danced with a stranger in a foreign country: Nope, just in my country.
55) Watched wild whales: No, but I want to.
56) Stolen a sign: Nu, dar ma tenteaza, nu stiu de ce.
57) Backpacked in Europe: Nope.
58) Taken a road-trip: Yup.
59) Rock climbing: no, doar gradina botanica
60) Lied to foreign government’s official in that country to avoid notice: Aaa… nu.
61) Midnight walk on the beach: Yup ^_^ Lovely!
62) Sky diving: No
63) Visited Ireland: No
64) Been heartbroken longer then you were actually in love: I don’t think so…
65) In a restaurant, sat at a stranger’s table and had a meal with them: Why would I do what? Strangers scare me T_T
66) Visited Japan: No, but i know someone who would love to
67) Bench pressed your own weight: No, I’m weak.
68) Milked a cow: no =))
69) Alphabetized your records: No.
70) Pretended to be a superhero: no.
71) Sung karaoke: Yeah ^_^ I was so embarrassed xD But it was kinda fun I guess…
72) Lounged around in bed all day: Yup…
73) Posed nude in front of strangers: No no no no and NO!
74) Scuba diving: No.
75) Got it on to “Let’s Get It On” by Marvin Gaye: Never heard of him, never got it on xD
76) Kissed in the rain: no.
77) Played in the mud: no
78) Played in the rain: Yeah.
79) Gone to a drive-in theater: No.
80) Done something you should regret, but don’t regret it: no
81) Visited the Great Wall of China: No, but i have friends in China so we’ll see…..:)
82) Discovered that someone who’s not supposed to have known about your blog has discovered your blog: no
83) Dropped Windows in favor of something better: yes, i just love being outside (my friends know the place i adore)
84) Started a business: nu
85) Fallen in love and not had your heart broken: no
86) Toured ancient sites: no
87) Taken a martial arts class: No.
88) Sword fought for the honor of a woman: No, I’m not good with swords.
89) Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight: Nu, nici nu stiu ce e aia.
90) Gotten engaged: no
91) Been in a movie: Nu, dar ar fi fain xD
92) Crashed a party: Nope.
93) Loved someone you shouldn’t have: yes, it happenns all the time:(
94) Kissed someone so passionately it made them dizzy: no )
95) Gotten married: Nope.
96) Had sex at the office: Never had sex.
97) Gone without food for 5 days: Tentant… dar nu. Stomacul meu ar fi mult prea suparat pe mine si m-ar certa toata ziua T_T
98) Made cookies from scratch: No.
99) Won first prize in a costume contest: Hm… nope.
100) Ridden a gondola in Venice: No, but it sounds nice.
101) Gotten a tattoo: No, but I plan to get one soon, I had one fake tatoo
102) Found that the texture of some materials can turn you on: o_O aaa… no.
103) Gotten divorced: No.
104) Been on television news programs as an “expert”: No.
105) Got flowers for no reason: no
106) Masturbated in a public place: I would never do that T_T
107) Got so drunk you don’t remember anything: Nope
108) Taken illegal drugs: Never taken drugs.
109) Performed on stage: Guess so, when I was little.
110) Been to Las Vegas: No, but I hope I’ll visit L.A. some day
111) Recorded music: No.
112) Eaten shark: No.
113) Had a one-night stand: No.
114) Gone to Thailand: No.
115) Seen Siouxsie live: Nu, si nu stiu ce-i aia o.o
116) Bought a house: No.
117) Been in a combat zone: No.
118) Buried one/both of your parents: No, and I hope I won’t have to T_T
119) Shaved or waxed your pubic hair off: Not all of it o_O
120) Been on a cruise ship: No.
121) Spoken more than one language fluently: Not fluently…
122) Gotten into a fight while attempting to defend someone: maybe
123) Bounced a check: Nope.
124) Performed in Rocky Horror: No. What’s that? xD
125) Read – and understood – your credit report: no
126) Raised children: well, not really
127) Recently bought and played with a favorite childhood toy: yes, with one of my doll =))
128) Followed your favorite band/singer on tour: No, but I love BSB so much, and nobody knows…..
129) Created and named your own constellation of stars: Nope.
130) Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country: No.
131) Found out something significant that your ancestors did: Don’t think so…
132) Called or written your Congress person: No.
133) Picked up and moved to another city to just start over: No.
134) …more than once? – More than twice?: Never.
135) Walked the Golden Gate Bridge: No.
136) Sang loudly in the car, and didn’t stop when you knew someone was looking: yes 
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137) Had an abortion or your female partner did: Hell no! I’ll never do that T_T
138) Had plastic surgery: no, i had an operation at my eyes but i dont think it counts
139) Survived an accident that you shouldn’t have survived: No o.o
140) Wrote articles for a large publication: No.
141) Lost over 100 pounds: nooooo, nooo.
142) Held someone while they were having a flashback: no
143) Piloted an airplane: I’m scared of airplanes, so no T_T
144) Petted a stingray: No o_O
145) Broken someone’s heart: no
146) Helped an animal give birth: no, i had just assisted one
147) Been fired or laid off a job: no
148) Won money on a T.V. game show: No >.>
149) Broken a bone: Nope.
150) Killed a human being: Nu as fi in stare de asa ceva o.o
151) Gone on an African photo safari: No.
152) Ridden a motorcycle: no
153) Driven any land vehicle at a speed of greater than 100 mph: Speed scares me.
154) Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced: no, but i will
155) Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol: Doar din alea de jucarie.
156) Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild: no, i don’t think so
157) Ridden a horse: nope but i wonder how is
158) Had major surgery: No.
159) Had phone sex: No.
160) Had a snake as a pet: Snakes are scary T_T So, no.
161) Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon: No.
162) Slept through an entire flight: takeoff, flight, and landing: Nu am mers niciodata cu avionul si nici nu cred ca o voi face prea curand
163) Slept for more than 30 hours: No.
164) Visited lots of foreign countries: no, not even one )
165) Visited all 7 continents: No.
166) Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days: No.
167) Eaten kangaroo meat: I would never eat such a thing. Poor kangaroo –_–
168) Fallen in love at an ancient Mayan burial ground: no
169) Been a sperm or egg donor: No., yeaaiks :-&
170) Eaten sushi: no
171) Had your picture in the newspaper: nope
172) Had 2 (or more) healthy romantic relationships for over a year in your lifetime: No…
173) Changed someone’s mind about something you care deeply about: maybe…
174) Gotten someone fired for their actions: No.
175) Gone back to school: Yah…
176) Parasailed: no
177) Changed your name: No, but i wish. Ashlee is my fave name
178) Petted a cockroach: I don’t like those creatures >.<
179) Eaten fried green tomatoes: No.
180) Read The Iliad: no, i didn’t even heard
181) Selected one “important” author who you missed in school, and read: No.
182) Dined in a restaurant and stolen silverware, plates, cups because your apartment needed them: Funny. No.
183) …and gotten 86′ed from the restaurant because you did it so many times, they figured out it was you: Funny. Still no.
184) Taught yourself an art from scratch: Nope.
185) Killed and prepared an animal for eating: no, that would be so cruel.I eat animals and i want to give up but i just can’t
186) Apologized to someone years after inflicting the hurt: no
187) Skipped all your school reunions: no, i’ve been to some
188) Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language: yes, an assian and a chinesse
189) Been elected to public office: No.
190) Written your own computer language: No.
191) Thought to yourself that you’re living your dream: Hmm…no
192) Had to put someone you love into hospice care: No.
193) Built your own PC from parts: No.
194) Sold your own artwork to someone who didn’t know you: No.
195) Had a booth at a street fair: No.
196) Dyed your hair: Twice
197) Been a DJ: No, but i would like to
198) Found out someone was going to dump you via LiveJournal: no, i don’t even use LiveJournal:))
199) Written your own role playing game: yes, i think it was a card game
200) Been arrested: No, and I don’t want to
Leapsaa (mai veche)
1.Cum te simti astazi?
PCD- Halo
2.Care e povestea vietii tale?
PCD-Magic
3.Cum iti merge viata?
BSB-Any other way
4.Cum era in liceu?
BSB-A weird world
5.Cum te vede restu lumii?
Ashley Tisdale-Acting out
6.Ce crezi despre persoana iubita?
Ashley Tisdale-What if
7.Ce cred cu adevarat prietenii tai?
BSB-Poster girl
8.Ce crezi despre prietenu tau cel mai bun?
Ciara-1,2 step
9.Care e cel mai mijto lucru la prieteniii tai?
BSB-Don’t try this at home
10.Te vei casatori vreodata?
PCD-Elevator
11.La ce te gandesti destul de des?
BSB-Happilly never after
12.Care e cel mai rau lucru care ti se poate intampla?
Kesha-Get in line
13.Ce regreti cel mai mult?
BSB-Figured you out
14.Ce te face sa razi?
BSB-There’s us
15.Ce te face sa plangi?
BSB-What makes you different
16.Sunt persoane care te doresc in secret?
OneRepublic-All the right moves
17.Ce cantec te descrie cel mai bine?
BSB-How did I fall in love with you
18.Ce se intrevede pentru acest weekend?
Paramore-Brick by boring brick
19.Cum ar trb sa te faci singura fericita?
BSB-Shattered
20.Ce te doare chiar in acest moment?
Paramore-Ignorance
